I feel awkward and alone in casual social gatherings. I feel like I don’t have a purpose or a role. I don’t know what to say and do. Almost everyone is interacting, and I don’t know how to approach small groups of people engaged in conversation. When I walk up it seems like they ignore me. When I interject a comment, it seems to flop. I’m really uncomfortable. I’m the wall flower.
(Perhaps most people feel that way about social gatherings. Maybe that’s why those kinds of get togethers are so dependent on alcohol.)
However, when I gather with people who want to spontaneously pray, worship, testify, talk about Jesus, and be led by the Holy Spirit, I feel totally at peace sharing what God puts on my heart, even if I don’t personally know anybody in the meeting. That’s one reason I’m so excited about Spirit-led Christian gatherings that Jesus called “ekklesia” in Matthew 16.
Also, when I make it my mission to show people the love and kindness of God, my nervousness begins to lift. When I get my focus off of myself and my feelings by focusing on helping other people feel comfortable, everything changes. As if by a miracle, I find myself being welcomed and appreciated by others.
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