Set Free From A Lifetime Compulsion/Orientation To Jump From High Places

As long as I remember I’ve had a “fear of heights” — actually it was more of a compulsion/orientation to throw myself off of high places. I don’t know if I was born with it or if it got a hold of me when I was too young to remember.

My mother always had it too. She used to say that whenever she got near the edge of a high place something was always trying to pull her off of it.

Once in my twenties when I was visiting Tiberias, Israel, I was feeling the compulsion/orientation so strongly to jump off my balcony,  that I was afraid that when I fell asleep that I would get up in the night and jump. Finally I got up and moved a big chair in front of the door to make it difficult for me to get to it.

All this sounds a bit “crazy” or “silly”, doesn’t it? But for me it was tormenting and troubling that this “force” or “voice” or “craving” or “compulsion” would try so hard to take my life.

About 3 months ago I went through a week of personal ministry (17 hours I think) called Restoring the Foundations (RTF) which blends 4 ministry types together: 1) breaking generational curses; 2) deliverance from demonic influence; 3) repentance from ungodly beliefs; and 4) healing life hurts. However, after 44 years of being a passionate, spiritual-growth focused believer, I didn’t really think I needed it.

RTF was very helpful and very Spirit-led (agenda-free). Basically, the husband and wife facilitators had me listen to God and allow Him tell me what issues needed to be dealt with and how He wanted to restore me. It was a beautiful spiritual experience and reminded me of how we let the Spirit lead the meetings at The Salvation Army Berry Street.

About a month after the RTF week I was in the Park Plaza Hotel in Gatlinburg, Tennessee standing on about the 14th floor and leaning over the railing of the atrium far above the lobby while talking with a friend.  Suddenly, I realized that I felt no compulsion or orientation to jump. I was amazed. This was the first time in my life I was at a high place and didn’t feel an urge to jump. So I told my friend about it.

Then about a week ago I was in Ouray, Colorado leaning over the railing of a small walkway and talking with my brother, high above Box Canyon Falls. Once again I suddenly realized that there was no compulsion to jump.  So I told my brother about it.

This morning I had another amazing testimony to my freedom. I went to Bandelier National Monument near Los Alamos, New Mexico and decided to climb the cliffs and ladders at Alcove House that ascend more than 140 feet. Here’s a pic:

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I climbed all the way up and all the way back down. On the way down I stopped a couple of times on the high ladders, leaned back and looked down just to make sure my old compulsion to jump was gone. It was. Wow! It felt great to do that this morning!

Then this afternoon I went to Puye Cliff Dwellings and toured the mesa top. At the end they invited us to climb off the mesa. From the top we climbed down a rock face to a ladder that was even taller than the ones this morning. Once again I was completely free from any negative feelings or thoughts about the height.  I am so thankful to God for setting me free from this compulsion/orientation that I have battled all my life!

One more thing: If God will set me free, He will also set you free from whatever compulsion(s) that you are dealing with! Jesus still does miracles! Praise the Lord!

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Everything – God = Nothing

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What do they do with aborted babies?

Baby bones bleaching
In the bright sunlight,
Would make the hardest heart,
Offended at the sight.
But when prenatal bodies
Are tossed out of sight;
Because we do not see,
We’re told it’s alright.

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Santa Fe, NM Lives Up 2 It’s Name!

Santa Fe means Holy Faith in English. My wife and I discovered that Santa Fe, New Mexico lives up to its name!

Our first morning in Santa Fe we went downtown and parked. The first thing we saw was a huge Catholic church with lots of people walking around it. Just inside the front door was a gift shop with many Christian books and symbols of faith. The sanctuary was filled with a holy reverence and had icons of the Stations of the Cross all around the walls. There was also a Stations of the Cross Prayer Garden outside full of huge bronze statues of Christ.

As we left the church and walked to the Plaza a tour group was driving by. We said hello and the driver stopped and invited us to get on board, so we did. As she drove us around town, she began to tell us about the spiritual history of Santa Fe and to use every opportunity to talk about the Lord.  (As we were driving to Santa Fe the day before, I had told my wife that we should start a spiritual tour company in some city and talk about the Lord as we showed the sites.)

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Our driver showed us the first church building built in what is now the USA. She showed us the chapel with a miraculous spiral staircase. She pointed out the Sangre de Cristo Mountains which she said means the blood of Jesus in English. She shared about her personal faith. She told us how Santa Fe artists sell bronze statues of children playing to hospitals around the country and then used that as an opportunity to talk about the power of prayer.

At one point during the tour, I told my wife that I thought she was from Houston. Later we were talking to her and she told us that she had moved to Santa Fe from Houston to start the tour company. She said: “When I was in Houston, people were always moving away, but the only way people leave Santa Fe is when they go to be with the Lord.”

Later, my wife and I got a bit lost and we were the only people walking down a lonely street.  Out of the blue three people walked up and a guy said. “You must be tourists, you’ve got to go in that building. There’s a garden behind it filled with beautiful statues. It’s the next best thing to Heaven!”

After seeing the garden statues we walked to Loretto Chapel so we could see the “miraculous staircase” that the tour guide had told us about. The Loretto Chapel was built in 1878 but the builders had neglected to put in a staircase to the choir loft twenty-two feet above the floor. They suggested that the Loretto nuns use a ladder instead.

The Sisters of the Chapel began to pray. Soon a man appeared at the Chapel with a donkey and a toolbox looking for work. Months later, an elegant spiral staircase was completed and the carpenter vanished without pay or thanks. The Sisters searched for the man (and even ran an ad in the local newspaper) but found no trace of him.

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The staircase has two 360 degree turns and no visible means of support. No one can explain what keeps it from collapsing. That’s why it is called the “Miraculous Staircase.” It is an overwhelming sight and left us in awe at God’s amazing power.

Later in the afternoon, I followed a dry gully up a hill. For some reason I picked up a rock and it broke into two pieces in my hand. There was a dead bush about 10 feet in front of me and the top was broken and pointed toward the ground. I threw half of the rock at the bush. It hit the trunk and then bounced and wedged itself in between a limb and a tiny twig and hung there. Like the staircase, I couldn’t figure out how that was possible. I couldn’t have done that in ten million tries. And I couldn’t figure out why the rock didn’t break the twig. As I looked it over, I couldn’t explain to myself what was holding it there. Was that another “miracle”?

That evening my wife and I went to the Museum of Indian Arts and Culture to watch a dance. During the dance, a man went to the mike, asked the audience to stand, and prayed a long prayer. We could feel his Santa Fe — his holy faith!

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America’s City Named For Trusting Christ

Living during a time period that persistently promotes political correctness and considers the sincere mention of Christianity to be one of its few remaining taboos, perhaps we should think about the city named for trusting Christ — Santa Fe, New Mexico.

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Santa Fe is Spanish for Holy Faith. The original name of the city was La Villa Real de la Santa Fe de San Francisco de Asís, which means The Royal City of the Holy Faith of Saint Francis of Assisi.

“The holy faith of Francis of Assisi” was not a faith built on formal religion and/or dry ritual. Instead, it was a living faith that was based on an intimate, personal relationship with and reliance on the living, resurrected Jesus Christ in everyday life.  Francis’ chief desire was to daily follow and obey the living Jesus.

Santa Fe — the city named after the holy faith of St. Francis — has a message for 21st Century America!

Wake up to the reality of the living, resurrected Jesus Christ; turn away from self-focus and self-destructive behaviors; and daily follow and obey the inner voice of Jesus; before it is too late.

Here’s more in Francis’ own words:

“Above all the grace and the gifts that Christ gives to his beloved is that of overcoming self.”

“Let us desire nothing else, let us wish for nothing else, let nothing else please us and cause us delight except our Creator and Redeemer and Savior, the one true God.”

“Even though I had committed but one little sin, I should have ample reason to repent of it all my life.”

“It is no use walking anywhere to preach unless our walking is our preaching.”

“God, enlighten the darkness of my heart and give me a right faith, a sure hope, a perfect charity, sense and knowledge, so that I may carry out Your holy command.”

“Keep a clear eye toward life’s end. Do not forget your purpose and destiny as God’s creature. What you are in his sight is what you are and nothing more. Remember that when you leave this earth, you can take nothing that you have received…but only what you have given; a full heart enriched by honest service, love, sacrifice, and courage.”

“Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy. O, Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love; For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; it is in dying that we are born again to eternal life.”

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Does God “Tell It On The Mountain”?

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As I write I’m sitting alone in the lobby of Sheridan Hotel in Telluride, Colorado at 5 am. looking at a snow-covered peak in late May.  And my heart is dancing. My eyes well up with tears. What’s going on?

Mountains make me intensely aware of majesty, of might, and of mystery. Mountains move me to stand in awe. They release stirrings deep inside of me.  What mighty power it had to take to make such majestic peaks! How could such power originate (as our culture continually cries out) from a causeless cosmic combustion? No way!

Mountains manifest the mystery of our existence. The scientific question “Why are mountains there?” is not such a big deal. The more significant question is “Why does the sight of mountains so profoundly impact us humans? Why do we gaze in amazement? Why are we astonished by the view? Why do mountains lift our souls and set our spirits soaring? Why do we deny our safety instinct and ignore our logic so that we can risk our lives climbing treacherous mountains?

If mountains are only a random product of nature, then why should such sights stir up our human hearts so deeply? Why do we stop and gaze in amazement? Why do we “ooh and aah” at the sight? Why don’t our brains simply say “That’s a mountain,” and move us on to more important things?

The answer is simple: God “tells it on the mountain.” Mountains manifest the glory of God and we humans perceive His presence in our souls.

It is sad that we spend so little time marveling at the magnificent mystery of our existence and at the way the glories of nature wake up our hearts!

Sitting here I see the mountain. I sense the stirring. I surrender once again to our Maker!

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Trending can B a Trap!

Trending can be a trap! When you cruise with the contemporary culture’s current you become a confused captive of its craziness. Know when 2 say “No,” and not go with the flow!

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“The man who follows the crowd will usually get no further than the crowd. The man who walks alone is likely to find himself in places no one has ever been before.” –Alan Ashley-Pitt

“When people are free to do as they please, they usually imitate each other.” —Eric Hoffer

“The hardest struggle of all is to be something different from what the average man is.” —Charles M. Schwab

“People would rather be wrong than be different.” —Henry Jacobsen

“Great things are not accomplished by those who yield to trends and fads and popular opinion.” —Charles Kuralt

“If fifty million people say a foolish thing, it is still a foolish thing.” —Anatole France

“In modern society the opposite of courage is not cowardice; it is conformity.” —Rollo May

“How far would Moses have gone if he had taken a poll in Egypt?” —Harry S. Truman

“When we lose the right to be different, we lose the privilege to be free.” —Charles Evans Hughes

“Whoso would be a man must be a nonconformist.” —Ralph Waldo Emerson

“The fact that an opinion has been widely held is no evidence whatever that it is not utterly absurd.”  —Bertrand Russell

“I must create a system or be enslaved by another man’s.”  —William Blake

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“This is That” 4 the 21st Century!

“This is that,” vs.
“This is what that means.”
–Today preachers like to take a Bible verse and proclaim “This is what that verse means.”
–The early Christ-followers experienced and demonstrated the Bible and then proclaimed: “This is that which was spoken by the prophet Joel.”
–Does your church tell what the Bible means? Or does it demonstrate the Bible in action?

Meetings about God are religion — remembering what God has done in the past.
Meetings with God are resplendent — experiencing what God is doing in the present!
All Christ-followers are called to “This is that” meetings with God!
Pentecost was a “This is that” meeting with God! (See Acts 2.)
Let’s have “This is that” meetings with God when we gather for church!

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Experience “This is that” at The Salvation Army Berry Street in Nashville, Tennessee, every Sunday morning at 10:45, 225 Berry St., 37207.

Experience “This is that which was spoken by” Paul of Tarsus; “When you come together, each of you has a hymn, or a word of instruction, a revelation, a tongue or an interpretation.”

Experience “This is that which was spoken by” John the Beloved; “As for you, the anointing you received from Him remains in you, and you do not need anyone to teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about all things and as that anointing is real, not counterfeit–just as it has taught you, remain in him.”

Experience “This is that which was spoken by” James the Lord’s brother; “Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.”

Experience “This is that which was spoken by” Jesus; “The Advocate, the Holy Spirit, who the Father will send in My name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.”

Experience “This is that which was spoken by” Peter; “You believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy.”

Experience “This is that which was spoken by” “a loud voice in Heaven”; “They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony.”

Experience “This is that which was spoken by” King David; “O taste and see that the Lord is good.”

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The Unexpected, The Unplanned, & The Unconventional in Church

The unexpected, the unplanned, and the unconventional happened when the Holy Spirit came at Pentecost and launched the Christian church. Pentecost (and what followed after it through out the book of Acts) was the was all about Presence & power of God working in & through ordinary people! Early church gatherings were unprogrammed and led by the Spirit.
–When was the last time something unexpected, unplanned, and unconventional happened at your church?

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A sermon about Pentecost is informative.
–Experiencing Pentecost is life-transforming!
(I experienced Pentecost 44 years ago and have never been the same. The fire still burns in my heart and I continually yearn for more of God!)

How’s this for unexpected, unplanned, & unconventional? U can prophesy! Pentecost boldly announced:
“Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams. Even on my servants, both men and women, I will pour out my Spirit in those days, and they will prophesy.” –Acts 2:17-18 (Paul of Tarsus put it this way: “You can all prophesy.”)

Francis Chan, author of Crazy Love (who stepped down as the pastor of a megachurch so that he could explore humility and simple church) is out of the box and “rethinking church:”
–“In the churches we’ve been used to, many people slide into the last few rows at church and then zip out right as the last song plays. Maybe you know that person or maybe you are that person! We’ve found that in a smaller church setting, everyone is expected to contribute by using their gifts for the benefit of others.”
–“Wouldn’t it be amazing to be apart of a group who wasn’t all caught up in the style of the worship band or who was preaching that week? Wouldn’t it be so refreshing to be apart of a group that gathered just to read the word together, pray together, . . . and be with one another?”
If you like Francis’ vision and want to experience the unexpected, the unplanned, and the unconventional–you will love The Salvation Army Berry Street, 225 Berry St., Nashville, 37207, 10:45 on Sunday mornings.

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Let’s “Flag Down” Another Pentecost!

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Flagging down the Pentecostal Fire!
–God’s fire fell on Pentecost and the early Christians stormed the world with passion for the living, resurrected Jesus Christ!
–Salvation Army founder, William Booth, sang in the late 1800s: “Send the fire! Look down and see this waiting host, Give us the promised Holy Ghost; We want another Pentecost, Send the fire today!”
–His wife, Catherine Booth, designed The Salvation Army Flag which has a bold star that proclaims “Blood & Fire” for the blood of Jesus and the fire of the Holy Spirit! And together with tens of thousands of passionate Christ-followers, they spread Christ-salvation around the world.
—William Seymour, in the early 20th Century, in an old building that had been used as a barn in Los Angeles, gave people the freedom to passionately respond to the Spirit in worship meetings and the fire fell and spread around the world as the Pentecostal/Charismatic movement, growing to more than 1/2 billion people today.
–Now in the 21st Century, both the church and our culture desperately need the Pentecostal fire again!
–Will you flag it down?

Here is the message of Pentecost Sunday:
God shows up when we persistently seek Him,
When we give up our programs and control;
And when let Him roll away our comfort zone.
Then He shows up, not in some religious way,
But with an amazing sense of His Presence;
With powerful demonstrations of His power;
And with life-transforming miracles.
Will we pay the cost for another Pentecost?
Or refuse to hear because of fear?

Was Pentecost for real?
–If the Holy Spirit came on Pentecost and 3,000 people were brought to the Lord in one Spirit-led meeting; then perhaps we should tear up our programs and allow the Holy Spirit to lead our church meetings in the 21st Century. Let’s do it this Sunday morning!

Let’s overcome complacency & boredom in church!
–Have we made church services so comfortable & contained, so controlled & choreographed; that there is no chance a challenge or crisis can occur, and thus, there is nothing to contend with but complacency & boredom?

Rick Warren speaks out for ordinary people to be allowed to minister to one another.
–“If you want your church to be a place where all sorts of talents and abilities are expressed in a creative way that draws multitudes to Christ, you have to give up control and trust people with ministry. So many pastors are so afraid of wildfire that they spend all their time putting out every little camp fire that’ll warm up the church!”

One way to “flag down God’s fire” is through God-gatherings.  Check out the Facebook page:  God-Gatherings Led By The Living, Resurrected Jesus Christ @ https://www.facebook.com/pages/God-Gatherings-Led-By-The-Living-Resurrected-Jesus-Christ/492372807586579?ref=hl

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